..love keeper..

i think i fall in love..

when i see him..

hear him..

listen to him..

its never get enough..

i became a person that want to

..always be there for him..

he seems have answer for everything..

his humbleness make me think..

i love him even more..

more time goes by..

the more want him..the more i think i need him..

but then..

it should not be that way..

then again..

there a sign...that tell me i must stop.

this love i guess i can stop by my own..

so..

i pretend to feel nothing..

when he was in front of me..

smile..laugh..talk,..

like he were just someone else..

but deep inside..

i wish he know..

i wish i have so much courage to tell him..

'hey..tell me to stop loving you and i am sorry for loving you'

i remind myself..i am the love keeper..

silently love..silently forgetting..silently deleting

all feeling....

* i can call it hurt but its not painful*

..the end..

Why is that so hard to be just normal and fine..

without even hurting You..
Making You sad..
Disappointing You..Doing the little stuff truly hurt me cause I hurting You more..

I promise but I broke it..I promise but I forget it..I hope but I change..I pray but...

Would you hold onto me again?

Would you bring me back and remind me more please..

If i ever fall down..

Just stop me and let it be the end..

His Beloved..

When i was a kids..

I would like to know who is God..

I heard that He love good girl

I remind myself to be a His good girl..

When i was teenager

I hear so many voices..

See so many things..

I try hard so hard to remind myself to be His favourite..

Day by day pass..I remind myself to be strong in Him

but..i give more attention on things outside Him

i have put away little by little my love for Him..

Until one day...

every good things had gone..

im alone and scare..nobody even try to care..

it remind me of Him..

His promises..

His Love..

the way that He care for me..

His name is Jesus..

until He slowly came and said

"You are always my beloved child"

^_^

Love.....

Love...
it silent..
it never hurt..
it was giver..
never judge...
calm...
it always learn..
it soft...
swallow the pride..
keep the good and bad..
it feel peace..
never hate..
soft...
follow the heart..
never lie..
covered with truthfulness..
feel warm inside..
it unbroken..
receive unperfection..
...Love